Madison Prewett is opening up about living in “secret sexual sin.”
“Around 13, 14, I got introduced to pornography at a young age by a friend. That started a long journey and battle for me with porn and masturbation. That created a lot of shame and secrecy in my life,” Prewett, 29, said on the Tuesday, February 10, episode of “The Candace Cameron Bure Podcast.”
Prewett continued, “I lived my life very much in this, ‘I’m saving myself for marriage, I have my virgin card, I’m following God.’ And on the outside it looked like everything was fine, but behind closed doors I was living this double life of living in constant secret sin, secret sexual sin and not confessing it to anybody, which only led to more sin and more shame and it felt like this never-ending cycle that I didn’t know how to get out of.”
The former Bachelor contestant explained that this continued throughout high school, but she ultimately “confessed that sin” in college.
“I finally was able to break free from that addiction and that cycle,” she said. “I think a lot of times we think with our sin, that if we confess it or if we finally tell someone about it, they will judge us, people will think we’re gross, they will think we are a bad Christian, if we say that, maybe they won’t want to be my friend anymore.”
Prewett, who tied the knot with Grant Troutt in 2022, explained that she felt “lighter” after confessing her “sin.” (Prewett and Troutt welcomed daughter Hosanna in 2025.)
“To kill shame is to confess shame,” she added. “It’s to confess it. It’s to say, ‘Hey, the enemies’ kingdom is one of darkness and I’ve been keeping this in the dark for too long. But the Lord’s kingdom is one of light and I’m going to bring this into the light. I gotta get this out there. I gotta tell somebody.’”
She continued, “What you’ll notice is that most of the time when you share that secret sin or that shameful thing — that maybe you didn’t even do, maybe it was done to you and it’s been holding you back for so long — and you finally confess that to somebody, you know whether it’s a porn addiction or an abortion or something that someone took advantage of you. I think a lot of times it’s equated to sexuality — not always but a lot of times — and confessing that thing immediately, you feel this relief and you feel this freedom. That was really what that journey was like for me. Even to this day, having moments of shame popping back up, immediately just confess it and get it into the light and share it with a friend.”
Prewett has previously opened up about her struggles with porn and masturbation, admitting that “this has been a struggle” for her since middle school.
“Thankfully, by the grace of God and by the power of Godly community and people around me, I have been free from porn and masturbation for — I don’t even know — 10 years,” she said on the June 2025 episode of the “Stay True” podcast. “But that was something that enslaved me and marked me for so long.”
