Lindsay Hubbard is letting her guard down on the upcoming In the City episode, reflecting on her “abandonment issues” and split from ex-fiancé Carl Radke.
“I can’t sit here and say it’s all their fault,” Lindsay, 39, tells Kenny Martin of her past relationships in Us Weekly’s exclusive sneak peek at the Tuesday, June 30, episode of the hit Bravo series. “And I can’t sit here and say it’s all my fault.”
Lindsay adds, “I do think I choose partners that aren’t necessarily, like, healthy for me.”
She then points to her relationship with Summer House castmate Carl, 41, whom she was engaged to for a year before he called off their wedding in August 2023.
“Carl had a whole f***ing bag of issues that he’s still working through,” Lindsay claims. “But like, what happened at the end of the day? He wound up abandoning me.” (Before and after his relationship with Lindsay, Carl has been vocal about his sobriety journey as well as the demons he’s battled following the death of his brother from a drug overdose.)
She reveals that Carl isn’t the only one who has left her, noting there’s been a pattern when it comes to her dating life.
“What happened with my baby daddy? He wound up abandoning me,” Lindsay says, referring to Turner Kufe, whom she split from in early 2025 after welcoming their daughter, Gemma, in December 2024.
Lindsay, who has been single since becoming a mother, previously opened up about feeling abandoned by her own mom, who left her and her brother when they were young. Lindsay has shared on Summer House that her aunt Rhonda is her pseudo mother and person she turns to for advice.
Kenny, who fans first met during In the City‘s May premiere, explains in the clip that he has a “very similar situation,” except it was his father who “wasn’t there” during the majority of his life. (Fans saw Kenny reunite with his father on the June 23 episode of the Bravo series.)
“There was a feeling of abandonment,” he says of that timeframe, which Kenny tells Lindsay was reflected in his own romances. “I was in an 11 year relationship. Got engaged, didn’t work out. Was in an eight year relationship, didn’t work out. I lost my mom. There’s these feelings of like it’s not going to work out.”
Kenny then reveals that “sometimes” he’s found himself “pushing a relationship and testing it to see if they’re going to be like, I’m in. You want to feel this, like, ride or die.” (Earlier this season, Kenny’s relationship with girlfriend Whitney Fransway, who moved from California to New York to live with him, was called into question after he told his pals there was no “spark.”)
Lindsay is in complete agreement with Kenny, admitting, “You want to see if you can push them away as a test to see if they’ll actually leave you.”
The Summer House star confesses, “I’m going to be battling abandonment issues until the day I die. The only thing I can do is try to manage and control it and recognize it.”
Lindsay notes that having her daughter has also helped her to manage her feelings of not being enough.
“I look at my baby, Gemma, and the fact that I had a daughter. I’m sorry, I’m getting emotional. It almost validated and justified my feelings of, like, ‘How could my mom do this to me?’” Lindsay says through tears. “Because I look at my baby and I could never walk away from her.”
While Lindsay has not reconnected with her mother, she exclusively told Us in May that she’s a happily busy parent herself.
“I wasn’t giving advice as a mom, but you have a new lens. You have more of a protective vibe to you,” she revealed. “My experience as a mom, I think, has given me a better lens on how to properly help my castmates.”
In the City airs on Bravo Tuesdays at 9 p.m. ET.
